"Oh, the staring and waiting for death wasn't enough of a clue?

I finally got into a place that, uh. Is... super financially secure. My bike's paid off finally, my debt's are mostly clear, so, uh. GonnabuyaringforGweneventhoughI'mguaranteedtofuckitupbigtime."

Breath.

"And rushing headfirst into things my gut or dick says are good ideas are... sort of how I ruined my entire life, so I'm still leery of listening to them on this."